Summer is here

so why do I not feel excited? I am really struggling with feeling grateful for the time that I have off this year. I am resentful that I have to attend a conference all next week so that my summer starts even later than it already is. Plus, I am already worrying about the beginning of August coming too soon--school starts on like the 18th next "fall," so that means I will be back at least a week before that. Most people are lucky to get 3 weeks of vacation off in a row so I really need to quit whining, but so far I am just kind of gloomy about summer.